I dont really no were to start

Im really sorry if i bore you

Well iv had problems with my body image and food ever since i can remeber. But my first really memory is when i was in my last year at primery school i was 10 and a girl in my class said you was of on a diet because she thought she was fat i looked at her and fought your not fat then i looked at my self very clearly and fought OMG im fat i was sat on a table alongside some other girls and compared my self to them I WAS THE FATTEST. That day i went home and weighed myself i hated it . I tried going on a diet but i barly lost any weight.

I dont really wont to go through every small fase of my food and weight because all be here for ever so just ask me questions if you wont to no anything all just go through the major events

In year 8 i was around about 12-13 i experianced my first binge i just moved high school and house and didnt fit in very well my sisters was causing a few problems at home and i felt really alone and things were starting to go out of controll. So  i decided to diet again as i felt i was gaining weight and i hated the number on the scale i started skipping a few meals but i couldnt resist. I came home from school no one was home i BINGED i tried to purge but got so devasted i couldnt i did this a few time over the next couple of months

My real problems started at the end of year 10 i just turned 15 im not going to go into great detail as im scared im boring everyone and i could be hear for ever so just ask me any questions you want to no but i really started to hate my body so i began to diet and i got down to 6stone5  (89 pounds) from 8stone (115 pounds) im 5ft2 by the way

My dad started noticing problems with my food and sent me to a dietiton and psycologist i no longer see either

in november i went through a mia stage and gained all my weight back iv only just come out of it and so far only lost a few pounds but i think my mia has finally gone

i cant really be botherd writing about my eating disorder at the worst lol

but im not just doing this to be thin im doing it to cover up my real problems and i wont the controll of my food

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